Independence Day

Independence Day

As I scroll through my Facebook, I see flags and Thank-you’s to our military. I see families cooking out and enjoying the day together. I see lots of water. Tonight, I expect there will be lots of fireworks. I’m home today. My husband is working. I’ve spent the day in silence. A couple of phoneContinue Reading

In The Zone

In The Zone

Many times I  have a “bad” day and I shake it off.  I’m one of those people that will audibly say, “Shake it off” and shake my shoulders, then set my mind on something else.  Today, there is no ability to verbalize or physically shake. Today, I seriously feel like this is a top dayContinue Reading

Yesterday…I was The Bug!

Yesterday…I was The Bug!

                       Anyone remember this song from a few years back? (I tried to get the ad out of the link…couldn’t make it work..sorry!)I had an extraordinarily awful afternoon yesterday.Well, I guess it started the night before.I was scheduled to work, so didn’t take my usualContinue Reading

“Hello Clarice”

“Hello Clarice”

So, I’ve not posted for a few days..several days.Actually, I have five posts I’ve not published yet because they are…in a word…depressing.This surgery took me to a really dark place.My mood goes from elated to traumatized so quickly that I can’t keep a handle on it.I’m a month post-op and I actually feel amazing-my emotionsContinue Reading

FRAGILE-Handle With Care

As I type this, I’m in bed.  Literally, in bed. I’ve been here all day.  All day. Surgery recovery is a lonely business. No one can really help.  My mother recently said to me that I am in “survival mode”. Am I? I laugh and joke when I can…and probably more when I shouldn’t orContinue Reading

2nd ASAP Support Group Meeting May 3, 2014

2nd ASAP Support Group Meeting May 3, 2014

New Member, LaTonya and I. New Member, Taren and I.  Taren becomes a Zipperhead May 13, 2014.(Not sure why this captured my cell phone info) Our fearless leader (and my sweet friend) Simone..with my birthday cake!Yes they did the very sweet..and embarrassing..singing thing.Very special..Thanks Guys! Five new members this meeting!  Vonda welcoming new member, CherrilynnContinue Reading

Musings about Love from An Essay of Transformation

The more I learn about love, about simply loving- the more I am endeared to it, permeated by it and transformed into a vessel of it.  Love mystifies me. Love is a noun, a verb, an adjective, an adverb, an exclamation, a question, a name, a sin, a choice, an antonym for hate, it is…

The Camino de Santiago…and Why I have to go.

  I am three months into preparation to walk the Camino de Santiago pilgrimage  (aka The Way of St. James) beginning in St. Jean Pied de Port, France and ending at Santiago de Compostela, Spain. I still have several months of preparations to make…but am now, today, making my intention public. Four years ago, my…

An Essay of Transformation

Sadness envelopes me like a shroud. Spindly, grisly fingers of despair clutch my throat, the heaviness of grief slowly crushing my chest as rise and fall of respirations slows to a lethal pace.  Remaining bubbles of life-giving oxygen escape my body.  Numb with death, a single tear slips down my cheek, the only evidence life…

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